I think that this is an appropriate title to describe my life! I try to be a good sister,daughter,friend, granddaughter,niece but it seems as though it is not enough! I find myself constantly explaining myself cause people don't get me. This is why I stay to myself. But even then I am finding that thats not healthy,cause my vocabulary and communication skills are lowering. I try to let people know that I don't want to be the friend or the person that is needy but its taken out of proportion. I know how it feels to be used. I think that I'm not made for my current job (ISM) or for anything that I'm trying to do. I now know how Khleo and Tupac and Bow Wow and Pink feels. This why I want to figure out what I have to do to get to where I want to be in life, so that I don't have to depend on not a GOT DAMN person! ;-( As Khleo said,"I'mma burn it down,burn it down,burn it down,down,down. Watch me burn it down." - Khleo Thomas (Burn it down)
Like my title, I just trying to make a way out of no way! One of these days i'mma be so big! That tables gon turn! People will be comin to me for shit! I am tired of holdin my tongue from people. Everyone wanna be like "OMG! Krystal,where is this coming from? Why are you "cursing"? What are you talking about?" Its ok. Imma be a new female rapper or something where I can put my feelings to paper! This way ya'll can feel me, hate me, love me, whatever.
"Just because I'm new here,doesn't mean I'm lost. Doesn't mean I'll stop. Doesn't mean I'm lost" - Khleo (Lost)
Now I see why I'm into Eve, Da'Brat, Pink,Lefteye, Tupac, these people have a "bite" and thats what I plan to be. I see that I care too much about people's feelings and I care too much about what people think about me. Maybe I shouldn't and not give a fuck! Maybe I should just be the opposite of what I am. Not Nice,Kind,and Caring.......Naw just a rude blunt female. Someone who has no heart. Maybe be Like the birthday boy (Omarion - its 11-12-10)and have "an icebox where my hearts suppose to be." Just be a cold hearted person. IDK, Ya'll tell me! I'm tired of the tears,the stress and the fears! Time for the blood to boil! The fire has ignited! Don't get burned!
